Everything Changes… And Repeat

I am beginning to notice a trend to my postings, whether on this blog or my Mission Possible! site. I seem to keep saying, in one form or another, that everything changes.

For the last 14 years or so, this seems to be so very true. Sometimes the changes come so fast and furious that they are hard to keep up with. Some changes are joyous and fun and others can be heartbreaking. Some, just make you stop in your track, causing you to need to remind yourself to breath.

But that’s ok! Seriously, it’s ok to stop, take a few deep breaths (however long that takes!), and take stock of what just happened in the light of everywhere you’ve been, knew and understood and believe, and where know you’re headed – dreams, hopes and visions, prophecies, promises and the like. And Truth. Where does this fit in the bigger picture. If it’s God, it will reveal it’s Truth in the scheme of His timeline and purposes. It will, though maybe not immediately, begin to make perfect sense and become a solid reality, as if it had belonged there all along. NOTE! This could also be the catalyst for needed adjustments and changes! Changes in behaviors and attitudes as well as adjustments in beliefs… HE is always tweaking and aligning!

Anyone who’s ever gone through any traumatic event KNOWS that NOTHING looks the same or carries the same weight, importance or meaning afterwards. EVERYTHING looks different!!

Sure seems like I’ve been here a lot in the last handful of months. (not tragedies, just trying!!!) Some of those junctures have been painful, often resulting in some letting go – which when you know how good this can be gets easier since you know there’s fruit in doing so; with the real possibility that in time what’s been released will be later restored.

Fortunately, in recent weeks, the changes have been fast and furious but nearly painless. Or maybe the pain of birth has just been forgotten with the joy of it’s arrival. We are in a new day in the great timeline of eternity, and things are changing quickly.

In the same manner that scientists are discovering realities they never saw before, God is revealing more and more of who He is, who we are and it’s sometimes mind blowing and breath taking. There is NO LIMIT to God – HE is without limit. I just turned 52 and have spent a lifetime believing and in relationship, and I am still being astounded by what is being revealed.

That’s where I’ve been in the last couple of days. I’m faced with a truth that I just have no grid for, but I know its real. I actually love that God does this. It’s keeps us fresh and hungering for more and open to the new that He wants to show us. Religion so quickly boxes us in. We get solid in our beliefs, and some of our foundational beliefs had better be, or we will be swept away where we do NOT want to be swept away to and by. Some of what we believed to be rock solid and immovable turned out not to be so true, or was just one layer of the truth to be built upon. But truth be told, His ways are not our ways, and His thoughts not our thoughts. His thinking and ways of doing are on such a higher plane than ours. He sees, moves, etc. with eternity in perspective – He sees the end from the beginning. And He knows exactly how to get us to our end, nothing escapes His gaze.

So once again, I’ll stand in this space of wonder and inquire and enjoy the mystery that is unfolding while I wait for the ‘how’ I fit in or maneuver in this new dimension of truth.


It´s Time for New Things

Greetings from Nicaragua!!

I´m sitting in Casa Mateo Missions House, where we´ve been staying,  for a few moments trying to catch up a bit. The computer was down until a few days ago… and we have to share! =)

But just to quickly update – The team has now returned to the states. It was so very odd to return to my room after we dropped them off at the airport, knowing that there was now an empty bed and an empty room beside me. It was suddenly sooo very quiet, almost too quiet. 

I went downstairs to get some breakfast, and spent a good bit of time going through an English lesson packet that Glenn uses to help the young people learn some basic English, but it has enough Spanish broken down in it for the comparisons to be a simple start. I´ll finish on this this morning at some point and give the packet back and start practicing!! 

I had some time to spend in the Word, but was in the piano room for a good while, to worship, and to work up a few simple songs who´s words seemed to escape me the entire trip, most of which are already sung here by some in Spanish.

The overriding theme throughout our time here has been along the lines of letting go of what was (the old) in order to walk into what will be (the new). It seems to be that season for many, not just here, but all over. And evidently, I am no exception. I think I´d already been catching that inkling, but now that I´m alone, knowing as well that there was to be some precious time with Pappa (God) once the team left, I am more aware that this is where I´m headed as well. 

In His infinite wisdom and grace, He knew how to push the restart button. I knew they wanted to take the extra bed out of the room (the twin I´d been sleeping on) etc… so I wanted to make sure I was out of the way before heading up to lay down a bit. (3:30 am came early!!) When I got up to the room, it was literally as if I´d walked into a whole new room! 

Maria just spoils me!!!! She put new bedding on the bed, replaced my 2 half full bottles of water with 2 new ones, straightened and prettied things up, and placed a rocking chair in my room!!! I was thinking just the day or two before that I´d like to pull one of the chairs into the room… but wouldn´t have! I was thinking last evening, that this was like the separation from what had been so far, to what was beginning. God is so gracious in helping us move from one season to another, one purpose, one assignment etc.. to the next. 

So here I am, about to head to the roof and check out the view and enjoy the heavy breezes that are blowing. 

Weekly Photo Challenge: Change – Morning Still Comes

Morning Glory

Morning Glory

As I prepare this, the late night news reports on the bombings at the Boston Marathon. I’d not been aware of any of this until early this evening.

I was already in a subdued frame of mind. Two of my neighbors are in the midst of cancer battles. One is in the fight for life, literally. The other, her husband is scheduled for a surgery consult. For the latter, this is only but the latest in a string of serious struggles this family has faced.  And then the news.

These things change our perspective of life. Everything looks different. Everything changes; like seasons change, like day turns into night and night into day. This picture was taken on Valentines Day. It snowed, yet much of the month the temperatures seemed to herald an early spring. There was enough fog that the early morning sun lit up the snow and fog in an almost magical way. I chose this picture for the hope a new day brings. The sun always rises – whether we see it or not, until time is done, it is one thing we can count on. 

To those whose whole world changed today in Boston, and whose worlds are being rocked by other devastations – may the Lord Bless you, and keep you. I pray you feel the prayers and hope from people from all over the world coming your way.